Music to my ears are Noise to others

ALL YOU STALKERS OUT THERE!

2009-09-13T17:25:00.003+08:00

THAT'S RIGHT ITS THAT TIME OF THE YEAR WHERE I CHANGE BLOGS!
OKAY IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHERE IT IS, HERE YOU GO.
REMEMBER TO RELINK, IF YOU HAVE THE TIME OF COURSE! :D

www.makebonmots.wordpress.com

Its time.

2009-08-30T14:56:00.005+08:00

Now, Its time to shove my laptop aside, maybe in some locked up cabinet. or something like that.
Its time to stop smsing people (i dont think this can be helped)
and its time to stop answering calls or making calls! (i think this can be done easily)
Its time to pull out those assessments and textbooks,
to put on those thinking caps etc.
To stop going out. Basically, to stop shopping.
Do as many practice papers as possible and PAY FULL ATTENTION IN CLASS!! :S
Time to stop blogging and youtubing and twittering. and all those other mindless things.
STUDY STUDY STUDY!

Until then, Current Goal right now... ACE THE OLEVELS
and get into this place. (ACJC)
YEAHHH, if not, then this place. (Rydal Penrhos)

Either way, LOL.
So, less than 60 days to the dreadful GCSE O'levels! So i'm not going to be online anymore.
If you see me online, scold me please. x/
HAHAHA ALRIGHT, till then! (:

HIATUS

GCSE OLEVEL ENGLISH ORAL.

2009-08-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

SCREWED IT UP!
GAHHHH, SCREWED IT UP! D:<
I HATE THAT EXAMINER!!
GET HER A LIFE PLEASE!

150th post! :D

2009-08-27T11:25:00.002+08:00

OKAY SO TODAY IS THE DAY.
THAT I HAVE TO TAKE MY OLEVELS ENGLISH ORAL! :0
I MUST DO WELL FOR THIS, BECAUSE MY WRITTEN PAPERS SUCKS TO THE CORE!
IF I WANT TO GUARANTEE MY A2 FOR ENGLISH, I HAVE TO DO THIS WELL! :/
OH GOSH, OKAY NERVOUS!
I HOPE ITS MANAGEABLE, I DONT WANT IT TO BE TOO EASY, OR ELSE THE EXAMINERS WOULD EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM ME :/ HAHA NOR DO I WANT IT TO BE TOO DIFFICULT D: GOSH, IM SO NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS. ITS LIKE EXACTLY 3 HOURS BEFORE THE ORAL EXAM! SHEEESH, IM EVEN MORE NERVOUS THAN MY CHINESE ORAL. SHOWS HOW MUCH I REALLY WANT TO DO WELL :/ GAHH, OKAY LETS THINK ABOUT OTHER THINGS RIGHT NOW.

SO I WAS THINKING, AFTER THE ORALS, I WOULD GO HOME AND RELAX, PLAY THE PIANO PERHAPS? AND THEN I WOULD GO FOR PHYSICS TUITION AND CHEMISTRY TUITION. GO HOME AND SLEEP. THEN TOMORROW IM GOING TO START STUDYING. YEP THATS RIGHT! UNLESS THE OUTING WITH THE F.A.C.E IS STILL ON 0_O IF IT IS, THEN IM GONNA START STUDYING NEXT WEEK ON MONDAY :D HAHHA, EXACTLY 60 MORE DAYS TO O'LEVELS! OH GAWDD, EXACTLY 2 MORE MONTHS. NOT READY NOT READY NOT READY. KILL ME KILL ME. OKAY YOU KNOW WHHAAAT, IM JUST GONNA STUDY, IM NOT GOING OUT :/ MAYBE LIKE I'D GO AND WATCH MOVIES ON FRIDAY AND SATURDAY. I WANNA WATCH FINAL DESTINATION 3D AND THE PROPOSAL AND UP! :/ SIGHS SIGHS, WHY MUST ALL THE GOOD MOVIES COME OUT AT THIS PERIOD OF TIME :/ GAHH, SIGHS.

OKAY EVEN MORE NERVOUS! SO MUCH EMOTIONS STIRRING UP.
OKAY THIS IS THE PLAN, IM GONNA KEEP ON SMILING AT THE EXAMINERS, TO THE POINT UNTIL THEIR JUST GONNA GET CREEPED OUT AT ME. YEAH I'LL DO THAT.

HAH, NO JUST KIDDING, YOU THINK IM STUPID?
IM GONNA SMILE (APPROPRIATELY) DONT WANT THEM TO THINK IM SOME SCARY/CREEPY GIRL FROM MG.

DOOMS DAY IN 3 HOURS, OH LORD BLESS MY SOUL.

when i talk about myself

2009-08-25T23:39:00.003+08:00

I'm going crazy, everytime i talk about myself. I go crazy.
I know, everybody wants to be special, everybody doesn't want to conform into this lowly society, they want to be an individual with their own morals and rights.
Yeah, i want to do that too, But while doing that, i want to be noticed as well.
Who doesn't want to be noticed? Who doesn't want to outshine others?
Ever since certain events, i've become selfish, i've become the opposite of being humble.
Actually, i'm not that funny. Its just stupid funny.
I'm trying to be this person i'm not, I'm a lazy pig basically. I think i can still live eventhough being locked in my room for 3 months. I would like that actually. No, then i'd turn even more fat.
You see, when i gather all these feelings back. I go crazy, i start to dislike myself all over again.
I've got to exercise, I've got to stop eating junk food, I've got to stop having those nasty pimples.
If i want to be accepted, i need to do those 3!
People are 75% visual, no wonder i live in such agony and jealousy.
No, i need to get out of here. I need to escape from this place.
I need to start a fresh, but these feelings always come back to haunt me.
to make me feel low about myself, after this year, i want to go far away..
far away, find my real identity, my purpose.

[edit]
AND YES I KNOW I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
IT'S MY FAULT, DON'T NEED TO CONJURE UP ANY FEELINGS OR THOUGHTS.

death comes when its least expected.

2009-08-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

I've been away for awhile haven't I? Well, i said i was going to study. And so i did... but i didn't study that hard, i could've studied harder. Anyways, preliminaries are almost over, emath paper 2 left on Tuesday. And after that would be my GCSE English O'level Orals :/ I'm not going to lie, I'm getting a tad bit nervous :S Well, I'll just read some ENGLISH newspapers, and just talk to myself when I'm bored and pretend to talk about a certain topic. PRACTICE PRACTICE! A1 for English! But that's highly impossible, maybe an A2? i never gotten that before! But i'll try my best of course!

So, I went for Grace's Dad's wake. And it was emotional, for me. I mean, i wasn't close to him and all, but the fact that Grace (my long time friend) is going through such a tough time right now, it pains me to see her going through this. She's so kind, generous, trustworthy and a Godly woman of Excellence. She doesn't deserve to go through this. In my eyes, She has never done anything wrong. I respect her so much as a friend, one of my closest friends that i respect alot. I admire her because of her courage, her independence, her bravery and her Godly character. During that whole time, i tried to put myself into her shoes, and i felt so overwhelmed... I thought to myself "I don't think i'd be able to pull through like how Grace is doing right now, she's just too amazing" During the service, i learnt that her dad has impacted so many people around him, i can tell by the throngs of people gathered at the room, over-flooded to that point where people were standing outside the room, there was no place else to stand. So many people... Its amazing. After hearing Grace's Brother and Grace talk about their father, it really moved me, especially the times when they talked about how they regret not appreciating their dad's gestures of love, they took it for granted. I feel for them, and I thank them that i have opened my eyes fully, and i want to start fully appreciating my parents, even with my parents silly doings that might embarrass me at times.

I came to realize that i have never hugged my parents before,
i have never told them "I love you!".
seriously, i have never, its sad ain't it.
I guess, our family just doesn't show much affection.
I want to show them that i love them so much, but im just afraid.. I don't know why.
Maybe because i don't want to cry in front of them? Makes me look weak and all.
I get emotional so easily, thats one of my weaknesses hahaha.
Gosh, i'm really going to treasure my parents even more this time round.
Because the fact that everyone takes a step closer towards death each passing day, frightens me to the core... Sometimes i want to freeze time, i don't want anybody to go anywhere, just stay where they are, and just take in the moment...

I love you Grace, and will forever love you dear! I might not know how much hurt you might be feeling right now, but i just want you to know that i'm always here for you. Don't bottle it up, just confide to your closest friends, need not be me okay? Just hold on to your friends and your mum and brother, and most importantly, our God in Heaven. I wish you the best in your O'levels and everything, we'll go through this tough year, grace! LOVE YOU! (:

time to study.

2009-08-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

HIATUS EVERYBODY.
go and study.

she's pissed alright.

2009-07-31T17:32:00.005+08:00

OKAY I GIVE UP, I GIVE UP.
thats it! this is the last straw!
NO MORE, NO MORE PAIN.
i am sick of this issue.
IM TRYING TO GO BACK.
hopefully, being able to forget.
I KNOW HOW YOU'RE FEELING.
actually, i might not really know.
YOU CAN JUST TRY TO TELL ME.
wait, maybe you won't.
BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS.
i've done to you.
IT MUST'VE HURT SO MUCH.
but i was being honest.
FRIENDS TELL SOMETHING HONEST.
right?
SO WHAT IF IM JEALOUS.
it just goes to show that
I RESPECT YOU.
and admire you.
LIKE A ROLE MODEL TO BE.
you should be honored yeah?
EVENTHOUGH YOU DON'T LIKE IT.
but what can i do?
THE FEELING INSIDE IS STILL THERE.
non can change it.
YOU'LL BE MY FRIEND FOREVER
and always

(this is not a lie. its the cold hard truth)

i'm gonna blow up, soon.

2009-07-30T22:47:00.003+08:00

i love myself, alright?
just don't cry because of me.

there is always a reason for me acting like this,
its the adolescence i bet.
its a stage of life, everyone hates themselves at one point of the time.
so this year is my point of time.
obviously it'll die down soon.

and yeah what someone said "It's all your fault".
and yes, i do agree.
so, i am sorry for what i've done.
its not like me for being this down and such, its just something i want to let out.
something that i can't possibly do in front of you.

because its all smiles for you, dear.

god, i need to do something about my shoulders.

2009-07-26T20:35:00.005+08:00

Putting on make up! (I've got small eyes 0_o)

GRACE AND CHARLOTTE! :D They look beautiful!
In the Hotel room (after founders)
CHARISSA and STEPH!BACK TO NATURAL LOOK!

Founders day!
alright, so the colour party is quite proud of our performance :D
we didn't really screw up or anything, so thats a PLUS!
okay then there was the GB Sec 4 Farewell, awww it was really touching!
especially the gift from my awesome King-sy (totally made that up). :D
anyways, after that, just went to do my singaporean passport! (yep thats right, im gonna be a singaporean in NO TIME!)
And yes, LOVEMG was good! :D I mean i promised shyen that i wouldn't get emotional and stuff (putting up a strong front), but then i failed.
It was after when charlotte pulled my arms to her side, she then prayed for me. I felt bad, i mean i didn't know that i had hurt her so much when i always said "i hate who i am" and such. I kind of knew that she was annoyed, but i didn't know that she cared about what i am becoming.
Yeah truthfully, i do not like how i look like (especially in majority photos = un-photogenic), i really don't like it, but i am proud about my personality and stuff. So thats why if i screw up my inner character, i am basically just a screwed up person. So i CANNOT for the life of me, screw up my character. I cannot afford to do that.
So thanks charlotte for praying for me, i was gonna pray for you but i thought i wouldn't have a good prayer, i'll probably just be teary and very uncomprehendable(sp?). Just want to tell you that you are blessed! And you know it, you don't have to find evidence to that.

okay then, lets talk about Founder's Day dinner,
well, it went fine! But sadly, i didn't really sit down and enjoy the dishes.
(most of the time took pictures -.-)
and yeah talking about the pictures, goodness me, let me comment on how i dressed.
firstly, wrong dress for the wrong type of body.
I have really fair and broad shoulders, so wearing a tube dress is a no no, but i have no idea why i wore a shiny blue dress.
Okay, then make-up. I mean Gloricia's skills are good! of course! :D
but then, i totally do not look any better in make up. This shows that all my flaws cannot be hidden (dammit haha).
gahh, well yeah and my hair was neither short nor long, and looking really bad. So yeah basically screwed up my Founders Day photos.
I will never ever look at them ever again, promise me you wouldn't as well.
let it pass, let it pass.
New goal, tone my arms (i don't think i'll follow it anyways).
hahaha but its nice to set goals, but it sucks to not follow them.

I slept for only 1 hour yesterday.
so i came back home and slept for like about 3 hours! oh my goodness, i was so tired.
i'm never going to do that again! lol
so anyways, I brought steph to church! :D
Hahaha she said service was good, but lesson was just strange (she didn't learn anything). haha i don't blame you, steph.
okay, so i went to VIVO, and i love Zara's shoes. Its really very very nice, and well my mum just doesn't think that i would wear them out (yeah must probably so haha). D:
OKAYS then, time for school tmrw, and prelims are coming up, want to know what im feeling right now? I am feeling tired and really not ready for school and not ready for prelims and definately NOT ready for O'levels. I AM GOING TO DIE!

i had a nightmare about you.

2009-07-22T18:40:00.002+08:00

let me tell you what i dreamt last night:

We were all dressed very formally, i was with my friend, talking to her and such.
We entered the most expensive hotel ever, and then when we were about to sit down..
You just cut in my way to sit with my friend, and plus you dragged another girl to sit with you on the right.
Where was i sitting? I was so far away from that long table.
I saw you, my friend and that girl laughing, smiling, chatting.
its unfair, its just something about my face and attitude that repels you away isn't it?

that dream remained in my head from morning till now.
When will i ever forget.
just tell me when.

~~~

OH MY GOODNESS, O'level's Chinese Listening Comprehension was very tricky.
lol, oh mann, if i don't pass chinese, i'm not staying in Singapore.
OH PLEASE OH PLEASE OH PLEASE AT LEAST A C! :/

that fluttery feeling.

2009-07-19T21:13:00.002+08:00

look, i might not be those kind of girls that wears skirts and heels.
but i am the girl that makes an effort to try to do those. (but sadly fails)
its a good thing that nowadays we don't talk anymore,
keeps away all those thoughts. those thoughts i detest.
i will be that cheerful girl, i will be that friend that is always there for anyone.

"AHA! AHA!" --- Inside joke :D

omg, today was legit hilarious.
And i'm so proud of our small group!
Members: Theodora, Steph, Jeshua, Jaron and I.
haha listen to our PSLAMS.

"I was imprisoned,
sentence to death.
for being a chirstian leader.
I submitted to it.

Suddenly, light blinded me,
my chains fell off.
'cling clung... cling clung...'
the gates flew open
my freedom was before me...

Thanks be to God,
Who rescued me!"

HAHAHHAHA AWESOME PSALMS LUH! :D
nyahhaha nyahh hahaha.

i saw it, i saw my A1 fly away.

2009-07-18T21:59:00.004+08:00

LOVE THEM! :D

i know i'm being pessimistic, but what can i do? You screw up your Olevel paper, and expect to get over it quickly? i think not.
But of course, i'm not at that point where i cry over it.
But besides the dreadful Olevel Physics SPA, i indulged in HARRY POTTER after the exam.
and it was BRILLIANT, god it was hilarious (some parts).
and i heart ron weasley (not so much on rupert grint) hahha.
i love bellatrix, i think thats her name. She's just too evil, and too cool 8D
plus, i loved her acting! (HELENA!) haha.

GOODNESS ME, i can't waiit for the 7TH MOVIE of HARRY POTTER, its gonna be awesome.
i heard from my dad that their splitting it into 2 parts 0_o
so PART 1 is 2010 and PART 2 is 2011!!
NOOO, so longg :/ sad sad sad.
well, at least i've got NEW MOON to look forward too :D
hahahha, my lights are dying, its flickering away.
and just to be random, i just started reading "Eclipse" -Twilight Series (YES IM SLOW)
hahaha its really good, too addicted, there goes my grade, all flushed down the toilet!

had physics tuition, you want to know what i feel?
i'm so different there, im so unusually quiet.
i'm not like that.

meaningful, meaningful day.

2009-07-13T21:57:00.003+08:00

crying is good, letting it all out.
you'll feel so much better.
It shows people that you're just an ordinary person, living and hurting.
dont have to hide anything, it makes you hurt even more.

Today, was meaningful. Class chapel was good, wasn't surprise that it was emotional. I was actually quite glad that people could open up with the class. Its good, their brave. What's there to hide? We're one class, its probably going to be the last time we'll see each other anyways. Today i realised that people might not be always smiling and all, they might be in pain, you don't know it. Its always good to extend a hand to the people around us, for all you know, it might have been the best thing that happened to them.

"A sign of weakness, the way that your lips tremble
Before a tear rolls down your cheek
Leaving behind a trace of the hurt you felt.

You're wearing your heart on your sleeve
You must be stronger than just curling up into a ball
In the corner of your room and letting the pain overthrow your serenity.

These things I tell myself before I succumb to the
Blissful release of tears and their salty taste on
My dried out, colorless lips.

You must be stronger
You're bold, beautiful, better than this
Choke it back, don't show them how much they hurt you.

The small voice in my head slowly grows louder
Letting me control myself, stopping the wetness in
It's tracks.

I do not cry.
No, I lied.
I cry, so much.

It's nothing wrong to tear for awhile
tilt my head to the side;
let it drop
drip drop
tear drop
falling
fall

I cry."

I found something!

2009-07-12T10:14:00.003+08:00

Lookie here, i was with Michael Jackson! Like last year, at the London's Maddame Thussuads.
Wow, thats really cool. Okays, so anyways.
CHINESE O'LEVEL ORAL IS OVERR! :D
YESSSSS, hahaha but of course i still screwed it up eventhough it was EASSYY.
anyways, i didnt go to the combined service today, sighs, i was just too tired.
after my mum comes back, we're gonna like go to this restaurant called the Sakura.
yum yum
eeeekk, i think i've got too much stress. I keep eating lol.
and jeshua is probably reading this, then he'll ask me to go run. lol
I've got to study sooner or later. im so screwed.
Prelims are around the corner. AHHHHH. noooo
Tomorrow is GB day, gotta wear my uniform tmrw :/ SHIITTZXSZ.
okay then, till further updates! :D

imma lazy bum.

2009-07-06T20:04:00.002+08:00

alrights, today was a bummer. couldn't go to subway with jaclyn -.-
all day, studying chinese, nothing went in. gosh, seriously.
So to cheer me up a little, i already wrote down ALL the chapters of ALL my subjects into one long list. And i'm gonna start revision TMRW! The 07 of July! 07/07/09 :D
and then one by one, i'm gonna cancel one chapter off. heh. sounds like fun.
okay so after this post, i'm gonna do something more productive.
:/ i have no idea what to do.

112 more days to O'levels yall! D:
this is gonna be tough.

but, for recent news...
4 more days to O'LEVEL CHINESE ORAL EXAM!
and
12 more days to O'LEVEL PHYSICS SPA EXAM!
AHHHHHHH, RAWRRRR, BAWWWWWHH, i feel like a perfect arse! (HAHAH)

Michael Jackson is dead.

2009-06-27T01:37:00.002+08:00

BREAKING NEWS: MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD
wow, i've been seeing this headline for the whole day, I actually got woken up by that.
My mum came into my room and said "Michael Jackson is DEADD!!"
And THAT woke me up in THAT instant; "WHAAAAATT?!"
gosh, today must be the Saddest day in history, especially for the music industry.
I am completely saddened, but quite fascinated.
I realised that when someone passed away, people start to recall that persons GOOD side, and sympathy is instantly created. But before that persons death, people still reminisce on that persons BAD or controversial side. FOR EXAMPLE: our beloved MJ, which was accused to have molested kids (but NO EVIDENCE), and then people just get sick of his whitish-bluish face, and distorted nose, and majority was against him. But then after today, people start to realise his hardwork, his abnormal life, his struggle and his pain, and they start to say "He is truly a legend" well yeah, HE IS A LEGEND, that i completely agree. Everyone prefers MJ in black, but not MJ in white. But no matter black or white, he can do whatever he likes, for whatever reasons, he's still the greatest icon in music and in dance. Its obvious because he did get his name as the KING OF POP. And he deserves it. :D

STRUGGLE; Give it up...

2009-06-23T17:10:00.002+08:00

Not all pain is gain, got it?

I've got a pair of tickets for The Hillsong concert! And i need to sell them. Its 5 dollars each. SO PLEASE BUY! :D hahaha. I realised it was on Founders Day, so i couldnt possibly go. And i havent found my dress yet -.- I am so screwed.
I haven't done a quarter of my homework. Wasted my holidays.
AT THIS RATE, HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GET INTO ACJC?! D:
gahhh.

Yesterday Jaclyn came over to study at my house!(: It was fun, at least it was productive. Haha we walked around, and talked and talked. Sat on the swing, for some reason we felt rather nauseous. HAHA i owned her in MONKEYBARS! :D lol hehh. ANYWAYS, i saw the note jaclyn!(: haha very surprising lol.

had a blast!

2009-06-08T21:30:00.002+08:00

7th June was awesome, cell group BBQ, just plain awesome.
really retarded at some point.
one thing: rachel can get really high when she consumes chocolates.
second thing: Venezia's ice-cream is good.
third thing: i have a feeling Amanda is joining our group for good :D
forth thing: Debbie's dog is ADORABLE.
fifth thing: I suck in photography.
sixth thing: Jacob has BLUE eyes (i didnt know that)
seventh thing: playing ball in the pool is way fun.
eighth thing: Wee Hwa is SUPER RANDOM!
ninth thing: Wesley's house is really niiice.
tenth thing: i lost one of my earring in the POOL or the Girl's TOILET. haha :/

ohh gosh, so fun so fun.

and I DO HAVE SKILL! i just dont know where it is :/
it sucks to hear people say that i've got money, shows that im spoilt.
but i mean i know i've got some money, but i aint rich like others..
Kudos to you when you've found your skill, i'll join in the celebration once i've found mine :D

I've got to start somewhere.

2009-06-05T11:55:00.003+08:00

Okay so today is officially the start of my June Holidays, not counting the fact that i had to school every single day from June 1st onwards. And yet, today i am lazing around. But i promise you this that when i end this post, i'll finish my Amath Papers. oh shit, I've got so many things up my sleeves. There is Chemistry, Physics, Amath, Emath and Literature to be done by the 21st of June. This is terrible, my time management skills are not entirely praise-worthy. And the fact that O'levels is nearing (4 months to go), does not make me happy. I myself make me unhappy. Dammit, i look at my table and see tons of unfinished work which honestly, makes me go crazy.

THE REALIZATION: Yesterday, i realised that i was just too spoilt and nonindependent. I call my dad to pick me up from school or wherever i maybe. And to think that i want to go to Wales to study... i don't think i'll be able to be so independent. I have a feeling, going overseas is not an option anymore. I might have the money to go there, but i don't think i have the character to start a fresh in another country. I want to stay in singapore till i'm 18. And the only thing to do that is to get 6 points in O'levels and get accepted into ACJC (my goal since primary school). I've never wanted anything so badly in my entire life, but to get into ACJC. But to stop and think at the current situation i'm in, getting into ACJC seems to be such a distance away.

THE REASSURANCE: But there is a back-up plan for me, if i don't manage to get into ACJC, its always a plus to go to Wales, its nice to experience something new. Good to leave this Scorching infernal place and just unwind in another place, forgetting the past and the mistakes i've made. Just erase it from me, and maybe just stay there. I truly thank God, for this.

yes i will do something about it.

2009-06-04T23:24:00.003+08:00

This is June: is going to be a fun one.
doing something about it. say yes.
AWESOME-NESS.
alriight done.
oh you'll see, i'll loose 2 kg at least! lol

I AM SICK OF PRETENDING.

2009-06-02T23:10:00.003+08:00

i feel like an idiot.
do you know how much it hurts to not fit into anything.
or to squeeze into something, to force your way in.
to not being able to find that size you wear?
do you know what it feels like to see so many svelte girls every single day?
do you know how much anger/frustration/disappointment/jealousy i feel towards myself when i see them strutting their way to god knows where they're heading?
i admire them.
i feel no hate towards them, they deserve respect.
I respect them, because svelte girls or boys are awesome.
i don't idolize or worship them, i simply adore them.
They are my role models.

[edit]
so i was blog hopping, and i came across this blog.
The title was "Dying to be thin", when i saw that, it intrigued me.
these were some of the words and sentences that really was quite interesting.

"So I've decided to do my first 3-day fast this weekend. Today I'll limit myself to water only, and a helluva workout tonight. Saturday and Sunday I'll allow myself whatever liquids I want, but no food at all. And as much movement as I can without being too noticeable.
I hate myself, I hate my fat self. 13 pounds in 30 days. God, I've got to get it off of me. I can't let anything stop me."

"In show business (her job), there is NO SUCH THING AS 'TOO THIN.' As long as I can work, no one actually cares how much I am or am not eating. As long as I look beautiful, I get paid. And until the world-at-large decides to stop voluntarily paying for the privilege of watching beautiful people work and play, I will continue to follow the rules set forth by generations of people who've come before me. I will do whatever it takes to do my job to the best of my ability."

"I haven't weighed myself yet, but I'm f*cking exploding out of my old clothes and I hate it."

i think i somewhat understand her.
I'm following her daily moves.
i just want to loose weight.
sorry.

chinese chinese chinese

2009-05-27T22:31:00.001+08:00

i want to be skinny :D

going googoo gaagaa

2009-05-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

AWESOMEAWESOME-ER

This is how Best friends look like LOL

O_O one word, WOW.

ALRIGHT, so its been a tough week... And what am i doing? WATCHING TV SHOWS! :/ ahh i frustraattee myself soo much. I watched ANTM, and i am disappointed :/ But i should've known :/ SIGHS SIGHS SIGHS, so I've been watching Gossip Girl and its soo good ;D Hahaha lol seriously, the cast are all gorgeous, seriously HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO FIND PEOPLE LIKE THAT?! :O unbelievable! haha anyways, so its like 12:40 a.m. in the Saturday early morning. And i have a sudden crave for cheesy fries, (dammit) and well another craving to frigging watch STAR TREK, because my DAH-LING Zachary quinto is starring as MR SPOCK! <3 aha i need a break, but anyways after i go to bed, when i wake up its all going to be HUMAN GEOG HUMAN GEO HUMAN GEOG HUMAN GEOG HUMAN GEOG HUMAN GEOG ALL THE WAY BABEY!!
go me. lol so i have opened my options to what JC i would want to go. lol OF COURSE i am still setting my goal towards ACJC and all, but you know whatt iff?? yeahh... So i guess SAJC then JJC then PJC then CJC? lol well its only going to be 2 years :/ how hard can that be D: hahha PROVIDED IF I CAN EVEN PASS MY CHINESE! :/ (worrryy worryyy) oh yeah chinese O's is like 2 WEEKS AWAY!! :/ GOSHH GOSHH GOSHH I AMM SOO FRIGGING DEAD! sighs sighs sighs, i dont wanna retake it again! :/ AIYAHH, so stressful.

okay then, TAHTAH.

Don't trust me.

2009-05-10T21:11:00.002+08:00

hello. I've been busy lately. The exams are still on-going and i am definately not ready for anything. Well, I'm just going to breeze through this exams, and i don't mean it the positive way. Ever since this year, i realised that i have learnt so many deep emotions that i've never experienced in my whole life before. Its quite scary, to think of it.

There are oh-so-many questions that needs to be answered. I myself didn't know that there are so many people in this world that are looking for answers. And most of them, if they can't find it, they give up and loose faith in their religion. Sometimes i do think that what if christianity is just another religion in this world, like bhuddism, taoism and etc. Aren't all religion the same? The only thing in common for all religion is that there is always a "god" that we should respect, and that "god" will help us through our "life", and that "god" will always be with us.

Now, tell me. What about OUR God (my christian friends), doesnt he do those stuffs? I know he's different than the others. But I'm sure the other "gods" are different in their own way too. I mean, what makes it so sure that christianity is not another religion that people just stick to, because they feel empty in life? What makes it so sure that the voice we hear in ourselves is God's voice and not ours?

Tell me, where is he? They say that he's always there, right next to you. But why isnt he reaching out a warm hand to assure us that he's there? Why does he always let us wonder if he's there? Why does he not appear in front of us when we need his presence so much? Why is it that only when something bad happens, we start thinking of these issues?

sheesh, i've been asking "why" so many times in my life, that i loose track on the answers that might have been given already. I realised that my life is so stagnant. And i admire those people that wake up every single morning without fail and say "Praise God for letting me live another day to REACH out to THE NEEDY PEOPLE in this WORLD and let them KNOW about Him!" those are the people that live such a purposeful life, and i admire them.
It is only when something impacts your life that makes you go running toward God, seeking help from him. Why can't we just go to him eventhough nothing is happening to us, when everything is just okay and alright?

I go to church, i look at my friends. Do you know that they just come to church just for fun? Just to see their friends? Just to see someone they like? Is it just me or is this generation dying. Sometimes, now i just dont want to respond to alter calls. I realize that after i do that, it doesnt impact me at all. Its like a in-that-moment event, its not a life-changing event. So i am not going to respond anymore, cause it makes me look like a hypocrite. A horrible hypocrite. Right now i am jut going to continue with my quiet time with God, he and I knows where my faith is, where my heart is. So there is no need to re-think about this issue ever again, unless it strikes me again.

You can only think of these when..
you stop..
and you,
think..
Where is God, really?

oh my goodness, NO WAY.

2009-05-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

i think im at it again.
please oh please oh please, not this year not this year.
im realllyyy screwed. :/

IMMATURE!
your smile,
your laugh,
its so utterly contagious,
how can i not ignore that.
however, you're beyond my boundaries.

convince me not.

2009-05-01T21:08:00.002+08:00

PAUNCHY is what it is.

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oh man, studystudystudy.

its mah birthday

2009-04-18T09:45:00.003+08:00

THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE THAT WISHED ME! :D
and i would like to really thank the people who planned the surprise during recess :D
it really was touching, didnt expect that from you guys (:
I OWE YOU GUYS SO MUCH! <3

loves!

let it rock!

2009-04-13T19:07:00.003+08:00

call me bragger, because i AM going to brag about my 2.4 km run ;D

(just to warn you with explicit bragging materials HAHAHA)

okay, if you hate;dislike;despise braggers, i urge you to take your cursor to the left hand corner of the window and click the [X] button :D

okay, SO.

amazingly, i took 14 mins! :D

YAYY, BUT I WANTED 13 MINS THOUGH! :/

dammit, must beat that darn caleb D:<

alriight, either than THAT, today has been borinnng.

oh yes, my chinese teacher has CHICKEN POX!

i don't know whether i should be sad or happy.

OKAY, so MYA's are coming up. and want to know something?

i haven't studied.

I'M SO SCREWED.

3 MORE DAYS TO AWESOMENESS! ;D

did you forget?

2009-04-12T21:56:00.005+08:00

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us

And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don?t forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don?t forget

i vow to appreciate who i am.
i vow to eat less.
i vow to study hard.
i vow to forget about you.
i vow to stay away from you.
i vow to chuck away the past, and bring in the new.
i vow to keep promises.
i vow to keep all my vows.

ITS TIME TO DO THESE THINGS, without you in my mind.
go along, and just go away please.
friends we will be, nothing more.
its amazing how things can be so different now, just a little distance can change so much..
yes.
just friends (am i smiling?)

smash all those damn mirrors

2009-04-12T14:02:00.001+08:00

hello.

error error error.
error error error.
gosh im so lazy! 0_o
I AM TRYING TO GET AWAY FROM MY COMPUTER!
i feeeeel sooo guilty.

bye.

tell me why, you're so hard to forget

2009-04-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

you're so perfect, im so jealous.

just cut it away please.
everyone is doing it, why can't i?
i think its because, i dont know.
i dont really know how to do it.
"just stick a finger up, ghack and let it all go away, all the rubbish" - Miss skinny
"really? that easy? but im scared" - Miss chubby
"just do it, you'll be thinner. trust me. just get all the gross food out" - Miss skinny
"oh? hmm i don't know" - Miss Chubby

mirrors, weighing scales, measuring tapes.
they make you come back to reality, you're not some supermodel.
you're some pudgy lady.
it makes your world crumble down.
crumbling, falling.
i give up in trying to pick up the pieces.
all it ever does is fall down again,
it sucks to know that there are so many people better than you.
GIVE UP ANGELINE! JUST GIVE UP. idiot.

the 5 W's

2009-04-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

do you know what is happening to me.
do you know what pain i'm feeling.
do you know how long i've been coping with this.
do you know how short i have left until the exams.
do you know where is the hurt coming from.
do you know where i can have a moment of peace.
do you know who has been breaking me.
do you know who doesnt care.
do you know why i'm here.
do you know why this is happening to me...

well, i don't know. Do you.

tell me something, do you wake up in the morning and say "thank you for letting me live one more day of my life" or do you wake up in the morning and say "shit, not another day." or do you wake up in the morning and say, nothing.
do you tell yourself that everything is going to be alright, or do you tell yourself everything is going to fall down eventually, or do you tell yourself, nothing.
do you tell others that you lead a happy life, or do you tell others that you're leading a depressed life, or do you tell others, nothing.

nothing, nothing, nothing.
empty, empty to the bones, to the soul.

whenever your world starts crashing down, thats when you'll find answers.
but, when people fall down, they don't know what to do.
what should i do.
like a white lily, so dull, it sees a red rose, and starts looking upon itself and wants to be as red and vibrant like that rose, but cant it see... that it'll never happen. just tell that little white lily to snap out of dillusion, stop fooling yourself. its not going to happen.

[edit]

BE

WHO

YOU

ARE!

i woke up late

2009-03-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Didn't go church again. This time it was because i woke up late, so i did last minute work again. Gosh i can't be bothered with my chinese homework anymore, its just so much to do. So i am going to sleep at 11. so for this 30 mins, im just going to reorganise my stuffs and organise other things. Yes, i must change my attitude towards studying now. Term 2 is starting, i am scared.
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this is ridiculous, i start talking to you and you just can't be bothered with my efforts. i really, truly miss talking to you (as a friend of course). you're so fun to talk to, it brightens my day actually. But, today you didnt reply me. For the very first time. oh i am so sensitive.

not hiding anything from you.

2009-03-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

no i should stop this repulsive behavior. i have been so lazy. remember the times when i said that i couldn't talk now because i was studying? well its bullshit. because i was actually watching tv shows online and lazy to talk to anybody. this is how much i hate myself, i am so lazy, ogaly and phat. at this rate, my future ends up in the ditch. i just don't find anything motivational to motivate me. i wasted my bloody one week of holiday, for what? not doing anything. i am so dead. i really don't know what to do anymore, i lost my purpose in life. and what's even worse? i don't think i can go to church tomorrow, i've got to do my undone homework. this is terrible, choosing school over God. but really, i ask myself. what are the consequences if i dont do my homework, scolding from teachers and guilt. then what are the consequences if i dont attend church, just people wondering why im not there and disappointment from God. its very easy to chose actually. wait do i want to get into ACJC or not? of course i do, its my dream. its like blair wanting yale. sorry, sidetrack. recession, i dont think i'll be able to afford london. i think i'm staying here, for my parents sake. but what am i doing? i am lazy, i am not studying. do i want to see everybody get 10 points and below, while i get some shitty grades? no of course not.

dearie, nothing has been happening these days, i just dont know what to talk to you about. so dont get any ideas lol, i might not be coming tomorrow, i have to settle my homework and stuffs. things has changed, huh. scary.

[important]
CONGRATS ON SAU YEE'S CTG! :D
on winning the CHALLENGE SHIELD! :]
to tell you the truth i expected only a gold, but challenge shield? AMAZING! :D
you guys proved me wrong, and so did not believe that you guys had COP okay -.-
lol! i owe you guys sweets lol!
and most importantly, SAU YEE, you're awesome. your whole ctg looks up to you and really you have impacted their lives :D

CONGRATS ON INA'S CTG! :D
on winning SILVER! :]
seeee ina, if you had totally given up, you would have gotten lower than silver.
but YOU DIDNT! :D
you keep saying that you give up on them, but really? it is a thought only.
if you would have given up, you wouldnt even show up for the competition.
even if they want ice-cream, they sort of deserve it because together they put in their efforts (might not be their best) in getting a silver for you and all the hardwork you have done :D
Dont fret :D

CONGRATS ON PRIMARY CTG! :D
on winning GOLD! :]
wow, im not surprised, you guys were awesome! :D
sooo smart and so adorable haha :D
seeee, you guys can do it eventhough you might be young lol.
learn from this experience and maybe next time for senior ctg and pioneer ctg...
you can do 1st coy proud! :D

CONGRATS ON PIONEER CTG! :D
on winning SILVER! :]
firstly, i am sorry for not being there with you guys. i dont need to explain because i am in the wrong. sorry for disappointing you guys. Eventhough the music screwed up, you couldnt hear, you made mistakes. At least you noticed and you guys could've won gold (: so its not entirely your fault. But i know that you guys persevered, i think that if i were there in the ctg, i think i would've screwed it up :/ but you guys did it! (: GOOD JOB GUYS! :D

haha i am veryy proud of them! :D

is it too late to retrace back my steps?

2009-03-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

she hears her mom in the start of the morning, mother shouts at her and complains. She's sick and tired of it every morning, she had to put up with the same crap every single morning. She drags herself, she insults her brother, she drinks milo and she gets out of the house. Yes, finally. In the car, she and her dad, awkward silence, but who cares, at least there is silence. She reaches school, she starts the day, smiling. She's failing, she's falling, she's faking, she's still smiling though. She drags her feet home, she steps into the house, her face turns cold, there is no warmth in this place. She's suffocating, she needs to get out of there, she runs up to her room spotting her guitar, suddenly she calms down, no more adrenaline, just peaceful. She picks up her guitar, she strums, "Everlasting God", somethings missing. Hello, God? where are you? he's not answering, please try again later, thank you. She decides to leave him a message:

"God, hello.. i'm sorry for my sins.i'm sorry. i've been failing, regretting. i'm so lazy, i hate it. Tell me, why wasn't i born perfect? why didn't i have beautiful complexion, body and face? why didnt i have a smart mind? why did you make me so stupid? God, you're so far away from me... I'm very close to giving up. I need you."

[edit]

i try so damn hard to regain back whats lost. and you just don't care. sometimes i ask myself, why the hell should i bother? its only making myself look like the fool. but i am going to persevere yet again, because i know that in the end, i would be the one saying 'sorry' , its never you saying that word, its always me. It seems that we will always be cold to each other, at least twice in one year, it is so very strange. I will always loose to you no matter what, which by the way... sucks.

and oddly, i still treasure you.

lovely

2009-03-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

A-Amanda
B-Beatrice
C-Charlotte
D-Danielle
E-Ethel
F-Fiona
G-Grace
H-Hui Ling
I-Iman
J-Jeshua
K-Karyn
L-Laura
M-Melissa
N-Nicole
O-Olivia
P-Phoebe
Q-
R-Rebekah
S-Sau Yee
T-Tanya
U-
V-Valerie
W-Wee hwa
X-
Y-Yolanda
Z-Zara

1) can R&S be together in a boy-girl-relationship?
no, they are both girls

2) how is L related to you?
School friends

3)does Y know who Z is?
nope

4)if C betrays you..will you kill him/her?
she wouldnt do that in the first place, she never will. (i think)

5)if K steals your best friend or boyfriend, what will you do?
HAHAHA she's too shy :]

6)if B tells you he/she has a crush on you?
:0 no way will that ever happen

7)will U and M get into a fight?
i dont have a U. lol melissa could probably just fight with herself haha :D

8)who does R have a crush on?
hahhaha i know who! ;D

9)if G calls you a bitch, what will you do?
SHE WOULD NEVER EVER SAY THAT, riighht grace? ;D

10)state the relationship between you and E
i was her angel, she was my mortal :D hahhaa!

11) who is C's bestie?
cara perhaps? haha but probably all her awesome GB mates :D

12)who does Z like?
no ideaaa.

13)what colour does V like?
PINKK! lol kidding.

14)where does G live?
uhh uhh, shitzxsz i dont know.

15)did you and C have a fight before?
HAH, numerous. -.- lol

16)who is H's bestie?
I THINK, its hae jun :D

17)what can u say about T?
lol RETARDEDLY FUNNY! :]

18)what if W tells you he/she has a crush on you?
0_o *CHOKES AND DIES* NOOOO WAYYYY!

if i could change back time

2009-03-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

this is time when i just hate myself so much. stress has been getting to me, no actually im not gonna blame it on stress anymore, its me and myself. its all my fault. i know i can see you smiling over the desktop screen and thinking "yeah, it is. glad you realised". The people i loved since sec one are the people i really trust and adored so much. but they're disppointed. i regret. i really do. so tell me, how am i suppose to face them? how am i suppose to stabalise my position? how am i suppose to hold on to the little hope i've got? nowadays, i dont have anyone to hug anymore. no one to embrace. no one to listen. maybe im exaggerating abit. i just want them back in my life, the people i disappointed, the people that made me understand how ugly i am. they probably will have that small grudge in them whenever i talk to them in the future. actually, will they even talk to me? its upsetting to know that by one choice i've made could make everything so, horrible.

i owe so much to the pioneers.
i hurt grace
i hurt janelle
i hurt nicole
i hurt yuen
i hurt amanda
i jurt charlotte

i am sorry, (but sorry doesnt cut it)

that's why, i am gonna contribute to gb. I am gonna help the senior ctg on monday. i really want to. to make it up for what i've done (its too late anyways).

sentosa and the humidity

2009-03-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

she woke up, dreading. ate her breakfast, consuming. took a cab, thank you uncle.
he left us, we walked. palawan to tanjong, oh the tiring walk.
complaining, whining. Was raining, it was hot, it left us hot and sticky, gross beyond compare. persevered, had the time of her life. going back and forth, back and forth.
finally the beach, got wet, got sandy, sat, played and laughed. she finished, he finished, she left, they walked (again) to meet him.
walked to lunch, blisters developing, sunburnt, so red, oh shit.
racist jokes, funny.
food, was scrumptious, oh so delicious.
time to go home, little did they know that there was a challenge ahead of them. just imagine, walking from siloso to habourfront, yeah scary. the blisters burst, at least she had a ride home.

"today was worth it" she said,
but little did she know that there was a load of unfinished things to do...

tiring, so tiring.
another day tomorrow, and she's not looking forward to seeing him.
that jerk.

something's waiting on the other side

2009-03-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

piles of books stacked up on the left-hand side of the desk, pieces of paper sprawled across the floor. What kind of books? she doesnt really check, she's too lazy to even bother. She's feeling the guilt, she can't help it but look at the numerous unorganized messed-up state that the books are currently facing, oh the trauma. But what does she do? she adds more to the horrid state, she constantly piles up more books, one at the time. She sits and wonders in front of the bright-lighted laptop, trying to fix her gaze at it and nothing else, but the corner of her eyes sees it. It can't be stopped, she keeps looking... wondering if she should get up and do something about it, but she just sits... waiting for something to happen, nothing happens. "Lazy", is going through her head endlessly and she imprints that thought "lazy". She doesn't know when she'll ever change, she drifts along the currents of life and hoping to reach utopia, no she's going nowhere, she's just a mere lazy fellow, waiting. It is no use, oh just get up your lazy ass and do something, O'levels are coming up and its march already, heard me?

its march already, all the more...
stop it now, january and february is down the drain.
march is here, its here.
its not coming, its not gone (well, soon to be)

its march,
its fast and its already here

all the games you've played

2009-02-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

oh stop it, do you really think you can outsmart me? Don't even count on it. To me, you're just as blur as me. You deny everything, you deny that it will never happen again. But really? Is it all true? Or is it some fake promise that you will always create. Do you know that you hurt so many people? You pissed off so many people, but you just cant be bothered about it. Sometimes, i just dont understand why you keep talking to me. Every single second, minute, hour, day and weeks.
But now, you're different.
you use people like a shiny new toy that will rust eventually.
you're an ass.
and you must stop hurting my friends that i truly love.
go away, you're a partial womanizer!

some jerks, will stay as jerks...

2009-02-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. . .nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Angeline
2. A four Letter Word: Anus (HAHHA)
3. A boy's Name: Andy
4. A girl's Name: Amanda
5. An occupation: Athelete
6. A Color: Amber
7. Something you wear: APPLE BOTTOM JEANS! (hahah)
8. A food: ALIIO OLIO spaghetti
9.Something found in the bathroom: A toilet bowl (BWAHAH)
10. A place: America!
11. A reason for being late: Alarm clock never ring haha
12. Something you shout: ANGIE IS AWESOME! :D
13. A movie title: Alice in wonderland
14. Something you drink: Apple juice
15. A musical group: ABBA
16. An animal: Ant-eater
17. A street name: Agape road? AHAHAH
18. A type of car: A Lamborghini hahaha
19. A song title: Apologise -One republic
20. A verb: Annoy

hhahaha HARD MAN :/
lol okay tah tah! :D

happy birthday vanessa! :D

you're not good for my health

2009-02-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

GOSH, i am so lazy.
okay okay so i am guilty for not revising and studying.
sighs.

sorry for not posting.
i just dont feel like it.
oh yes, my brother is going through adolesence(sp?)
sucks.

SIEW YI, I NEED TO GO BUGIS WITH YOU DEARIE!
RACHEL TANG, for some reason i need to go shopping with you. HAHHA
FUSION'09 :D
cant waiit.

alright so on the 31st of January,
i went to steph's house for my cell groups pot luck party.
yeah not so much for a PARTY.
but it wasnt as bad as i thought.
cause it was damn funny, seriously derek was HILARIOUS.
and also fiona, hahha when she laughed.. she looked like she was SUFFERING
oh and shannyy, no one can forget shanny, she's ADORABLE
rachel tanng, being her usual self, shouting at jacob and others of course lol
i pity jacob, poorr jacob.
weehwa is just as odd and stranngee as usual lol
lol steph and wesley has some grudge going on lol. its really funny.
ANYWAYS, we played taboo and watched 1/4 of enchanted and 1/4 of Nacho Libre.
how... fun.
and gosh i'll NEVER forget those awkward moments.
like "uhm.. okayyyeee"
(i felt like an introvert -.-)

OKAY, bye for now.

lets make this short and sweet

2009-01-18T20:30:00.001+08:00

sooo, this week has been definately lonng.
its really very tiring.

hmm to sum up everything,
school has been interesting.
nothing boring.
its just really tiring.
something that im not looking forward to, isss the total defence day thingy
and the St lukes fundraising thingamonor!
gahhh, okays.

STOMACH ACHE!
rawrrrr.

GROW HAIR, GROOOWWW! D;

i am stressed

2009-01-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

if you didnt know, the title says "i am stressed".
and its just the 1st week of school.
there is so little time
and im wasting away my precious studying time, by blogging.
gosh.
my aim, is to get into ACJC.
if not. well i have no back-up plan.
its either there, or give up.

and asherr, NO I AM NOT JEALOUS.
at least not the ANGRY jealous. haha
its the "sighs" jealous! >;D
dont anyhow sayyy.
hmmmm, next monday is gonna be the release of O'levels results.
i am apparently really scared.
heh, i just dont want to have another level doing INCREDIBLY well.
and then coming to my year, we did badly.
thats just embarrassing.
sighs, i want to do well for chinese.

chinese chinese chinese.
whats wrong with me.

fat fat fat
whats wrong with me.

you know what, I DONT CARE

2009-01-01T09:21:00.000+08:00

Lets try a new format, shall we (:
oh yes, dao mode is on. (if you know whati mean)
oh yeah, a question for you people
a new way to insult someones pimples: "you can join the dots on your face HAHA"
yeah brilliant way, it will send her/him crying.
another way to insult someones fringe: "if i were you, i would rather chop of my fringe and have no fringe instead"

yeah such brilliant insults, made my day actually. (seriously)
hmm, so i was glad to see Jaclyn and Rachel, i missed them so much!
but anyways, i felt really weird going to church again.
its like, i was shivering.
not because it was cold or anything, it was as if i committed something wrong.
and probably so scared and ready for insults attacking me.
why'd you think i put my hood up.
prolly people thinks im a weirdo, thats why i had to put it down.
sighs, do you know that cute means: adorable but ugly.
how encouraging.
lol that proves my point actually

HAHHAHAHAHHAA.
okays so im gonna change from now.
no laptop, only of course for weekends.
weekdays are FULL FRONTAL STUDYING.
i am determined to go to ACJC!
gahhh, must must must.
then at 5 O'clock, I WILL RUN/SWIM (exercise) <-- im not gonna be FAT, dammit i wanna CHANGE!
alrights, then everytime when i come back home from school, i will REVISE what i have done!
yess, and in school im gonna ask questions when im in doubt.
and then im gonna eat only fruits for recess.
and for GB, im gonna be as responsible as i can! (vice-chair)
because i was scolded. LOL.
thennn, im gonna help my mum with the dishes!
im gonna learn how to COOK, and CHOP VEGGIES
lol hahahah.
ANYWAYS, back on track.
im just gonna not be lazy for this year. 2009

about service now, somehowww during sermon.
it sort of related to me.
i felt so damn embarrassed.
but yeah everything was truee during sermon.
i am humble, but not reallly humble.
humble = think about God and only thinks about serving others, and not thinking about themselves
but im just a self-low-esteem personnn.
its the "think about where God is, keep thinking about one's own self and serves others while doing so."
YEP, thats totally meee.
HAHHAHA, alrights.
the funny thing about watchnite was that,
because i was waiting at the bus stop, it was so creepy.
so i went to the lobby instead, and while going there i saw people. yeah people.
then i just went like "shiittt" and turned back. then went from the front.
im living in fear, dammit.

oh yeah did i mention, I HATE MY FRIGGING HAIR!
alrightt, a new year, a new attitude.
dont worry angie, your hair will grow back 2-3 weeks time.
then you can go to your USUAL hairdresser to cut it as last time.
gosh, i cant wait.

oh yes shout outs!

SCHOOLMATES: gosh, i miss you guys (Shyen,Sharn,Yap,Fi,Steph,Liting and 3S'08). I always feel comfortable with you guys around, sadly school is starting and im only looking forward to seeing you people! haha, O'levels next yearr people, so fasttt. gosh, time please slow down. haha MGS foreverrr! :D

CHURCHMATES: you guys are the besttt, i only see you once a week, so i dont know what to say. Well we arent bonded, as i can tell. But some of us are (: hahaha, JACLYN AND RACH, you guys make life in church more bearable, and im so lucky to have you guys as my churchiesss.
oh yeah and this is for the other people i know in church too. :D (you know who you are! ;D)

GBMATES: LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS! omigosh, we're so retarded with each other! i wonder how are we gonna separate after 2009. its gonna be so sad. YOU MAKE SCHOOL LIFE MORE EXCITING! :D

JANELLE: my number one best friend! like your present? :D haha, we went through ups and downs and everything together, and 2009 is gonna be the toughest. we're gonna finish the race soon. the secondary race though lol. and i want you and i to finish it well, no injuries, and no dropping out from it. we will be running the Two Legged race. I will support you and the same for you lol :P haha, i will be there for you! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009.
lets begin very smoothly...

to be honest; i am scared.

so i wont give up, no i wont breakdown

2008-12-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

forget about that last post, it was immature. it was stupid, i f!@#ed up.

what i've been hearing "Someone's watching over me"

I found myself today,
Oh I found myself and ran away,
something pulled me back,
Voice of reason I forgot I had,
All I know is your not here to say,
What you always used to say,
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up,
no I won't break down,
sooner than it seems life turns around,
and I will be strong
even if it all goes wrong,
when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe,
someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light,
and it's shining on my destiny
shining all the time
and I won't be afraid
to follow everywhere it"s taking me
all I know is yesterday is gone
and right now I belong
to this moment, to my dreams

what does it mean

It doesn't matter what people say
and it doesn't matter how long it takes
believe in yourself and you'll fly, high,
and it only matters how true you are
be true to yourself and follow your heart

i want to say thank you
for pulling me through.
Dad
Mum
Janelle
Jaclyn
Sau Yee
Reuben
Jeshua
Caleb

you see me for who i am.
it doesnt matter how shitty i look, you still care.
and for that, i thank you so very much.
2008 has been so much fun, with you around.
thank you.
i am so lucky,
to have someone watching over me

just let me cry it out, just for once.

2008-12-29T20:03:00.000+08:00

Since it is going to be the end of 2008, i just want to pour out all the truths and all the lies that might spoil 2009. I dont want to keep it all inside myself, i feel so depressed and so negative. I know i've got great friends, really wonderful ones. But something is missing. I just feel so, alone. God, where are you.
i need you.
i've not been crying, and i've not been happy. Im just average, im just drifting/floating...
to tell the truth, i hate myself. Is it not obvious?
i dont even know why i even go to church, maybe its because of the interesting scandals.
i vow that if i dont have the correct attitude to go to church, i shouldnt dare step foot in it.
i hate myself, i am worthless. No matter how many people tell me the opposite, it wouldnt impact me. I am at loss, sometimes i just want to feel good about myself.
but i can't (negativity)
its so hard when i see others so much more perfect, everyone i see is better.
they might not be, but i see them as a perfect form.
i look in the mirror, and despise what i see, i dont need help, i just need to learn.
i have problems, self-issues.

i just hate myself, i complained to my parents before.
and yes they got pretty worked up cause they did "make" me, and by saying that i am short,fat,ugly.. i am insulting them.
well their genetics mixed went terribly wrong on me, some chemical reaction of some sort.
the more i look at myself in the mirror, the more stress i am.
the more pimples that breaks out.
you say, "stop looking at yourself then"
but i say, i can't.. i am too self-conscious.

i hate it.
i hate everything thats about me.

sometimes i just dont understand why you'll infatuate.
i know its the inside, but you see... on the inside i am an ugly monster.
you just dont know it, you just dont. (spoilt brat/self-centered/self-conscious/unholy)
i know myself more than you do, i dont deserve you
you deserve someone more holy.

tsktsk, angie. you're such a letdown.

dont look at me, im uglyyy

2008-12-29T14:05:00.001+08:00

okay i am not in the mood for cheer and happiness.
okay i'll tell you what happened during the holidays.
i had a haircut
i ate (x1000000)
i discovered new allergies
resulting to pimples and blotches of reds on my face

i dont want to step out of the house anymore.
except school.
oh god, KILL ME.

what a way to end 2008.
oh yeah, merry christmas.

on the brighter side:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET SWEET JANELLE! ;D
i love you so much.
seriously i do, as if you dont already know.. YOU ARE MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER! :D
i wish you a pleasant year ahead (like only 2 more days)
MANY LOVES AHEAD OF YOU IN 2009! :D
LOVES LOVES LOVES!
x0x0

The 100th Post!

2008-12-19T16:23:00.000+08:00

sorry im being really slow.
but.
OMG THE TWILIGHT BOOK IS AWESOME!
seriously and im only on chapter 4.
Edward Cullen is so dreamy.

hahaha anyways.
im really sick.
i have this runny nose and a cough.
but at least my fever died down.
so thats a relief :D
today i finished the book "Knocked out by my Nunga-nungas"
omg funny as hell.
so yeah now just starting on Twilight.
haha SLOWW.

gosh i wanna watch so many movies.
but im sick damn it.
gahhh.

OKAYS, last post till 29th of december yall!
cause 21st to the 29th im going to glorious malaysia.
yeah to celebrate christmas there.
how fun! :D
(no sarcasm there)

OKAYS, HAPPY 100TH intricatesound.blogspot POST! :D

ADIOS

oh fish everything dammit

2008-12-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

that sums up london for me :D

okay on a lighter note,
i really enjoyed London alot.
i loved the cold weather
and the carefree people around.
They dont care what you look like or who you are or what skin you are.
they still are so nice to us.
even though we're asians.

something i disliked.
i gained weight because i ate alot.
FUG IT DAMMIT!
i am so pissed off right now,
i would love to keep cussing right now.
but sadly i cant because this is a public thingy.
so yeah.

i went on the weighing scale and god..
it was a terrible sight.
right there and then i wanted to like force my finger down my throat.
but you KNOW i'll neverr do that.
cause i've got vomitting phobia.
it scares me.
the feeling is horrible.

but anyways the sad thing is that im going to malaysia this sunday
21st to the 29th
AND, my grandma loves to fugging feed me to death.
she enjoys seeing me get stuffed and get fat.
of course, all grandparents love to see that sight.
"because when i was young, i didnt have food to eat! so now you should be greatful."
-said by my grandma.
OKAY, yeahhh greatful..
OH WHY THANK YOU GREAT AND WONDERFUL FOOD, THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME, SO DAMN FAT!
yes i really owe so much to you.
what do you want?
i'll GLADLY get you something.
really.

thank
you.

ANYWAYS, i am of course going to eat but just not too much.
no more chocolates and no more sweets.
NO MORE CHIPS.
NO MOREE ANYTHING.

except,
lots of veggie.
little rice.
little meat.
lots of fruits.
lots of soup and water.

HOWS THAT FOR A CHANGE.

OH GLORIOUS CHANGE!
gahh im so pissed at my parents.
i complained to them :
"GAH I GAINED WEIGHT! IM SO FREAKIN FAT!"
and they say:
"OH, DARLING YOU'RE NOT FAT AND UGLY!
YOU'RE AT YOUR PERFECT SIZE, YOU STILL MUST EAT YOUR 3 MEALS A DAY! :D"

like wth.
i didnt even complain that i was ugly.
like where did that come from.
okay prolly because i did complain last time..
like a lot of times.
BUT WRONG TIMING DONT CHA THINK DAD&MUM?!

okay so im struggling with self-issues.
at least its not as bad as wanting to go for plastic sugery and liposuction.
okay MAYBE I DID CONSIDER LIPO.
but seriously, me.. having.. liposuction..
that will NOT happen.
and you know it.

AND NO I DONT WANNA EXERCISE WITH ANYONE!
im just going to exercise on my own, and stay in hiding until january.
yeahhh.
seriously.
okays so yeah my fats seems to be growing like rapidly.
so iii cant teally se the svreen...
mi fats are like blokking my sight,
so begore it gets worset
i will leeeve and leed mi everr so sad sad sad life.

i currently look like this, dont believe me? well BELIEVE ME!

So i will maintain a healthy diet and this is EVER-SO-POSSIBLY the results.
PLEASE PLEASE OH PLEASE, let this be the results. (im a sad person, it'll never work)
this is just something to look forward to. just to make myself feel better.
no im jealous of this woman actually. dammit.
HOW THE HECKK will i ever-so-possibly become like this.
GAHHHH annoying piece of shit i am.

hopefully, results.
god, please.

adios.

Don't miss me

2008-12-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

Daniel Radcliff's wax figure is on the right.Miley Cyrus's Wax Figure

Big Ben

London Tube Station

London Eye

PLATFORM 9 3/4 haha :D do you see the half stuck trolley?

JONAS BROTHER's wax figure's, its on the right of each of them :D

Helloo, haha
just to tell you people, I'm off to London from the 5th to the 15th.
And i will still go online, but i doubt you'll be able to catch me online.
TIME DIFFERENCE.
haha.
anyways, you can EMAIL me if its an emergencyy.
and dont sms me, because I WILL REPLY BACK.
so spare me the urge to reply back, and save my cash haha.

WHAT DO YOU WANT PEOPLE? :O
or else, i'll just get you crappyy stuff.
hahah

from your awesome-ness! :D

TILL THEN YO! 8D

a sudden obsession struck angie

2008-12-03T14:38:00.000+08:00

THE ECLIPSE Take that Ando! ;D

Quinto and Bell, Awesome much? :D

YAYY.

awkward way to kill a person.
THIS SCENE, so sad D;

notice that Elle doesnt have that electric ball on her hand ;D

take note of Mr.Bennettes Feet, floating? or standing on something ;D

OH, maya ;D

HIROOOOO (:

foxy womannn.

literally a total heartbreaker

eeeeppp.

yes, you're awesome. :D

HAHAHHAHA,
HEROES = AWESOME SHOW EVER.

dont miss the latest episode.
ECLIPSE: Part 2

every tuesday at the website,
www.tv-video.net

:}

CHEER UP, YOU!

2008-12-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

CALEB E, CHEER UP!

anyways,for those who didnt get what they wanted.
CHEER UP AND MOVE ON AND BE HAPPY! :D
*easy for you to say, angie*
okay maybe, but just relax.
or what my spaz call it, CHILLAX! :D

I realised that i wont be able to go to church for one whole month.
december.
SADSADSADSAD.
and when i come back to church, it'll be 4th of january,
and my brother is in TTB.
how wonderful -_-

gah, HEROES HAS BEEN A BOMB! :D
awesome show awesome showww.

SYLAR&ELLE, are MEANT TO BE! :D

nothing but your Tshirt on;;

2008-11-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

Today was GB flag-day.
haha it was really interesting.
considering it was my firsttt time.
"HELLO WOULD YOU LIKE TO DONATE TO THE YONG-EN CARE CENTRE?"
hahaha,
anyways target was 100 bucks.
but i dont think i collected near that amount at all.
at least i did my best :D
after all that, I SAW MY LOVELY LITING! and amanda yap -_-
hahahhaha KIDDING :D
love the both of them.
ANYWAYS, went to SAU'S house after flag-dayyy.
yess was fooling around in her house.
and did some music drill choreography.
HEH.

camwhored with SEC 3's! :D
awesomeeenesss.
ALL ON FACEBOOK BABEYY!

loves!
DOING WORKK! :D

Happy Birthday to You!

2008-11-25T17:00:00.001+08:00

oh what the heck,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEREK!
knew you since like what.. primary 6?
haha, okay sorry i aint getting you anything.
its the thought that counts riight.
you've been a great heroes&gossip girl friend.
and yesss sylar is hot HAHA.
have a great day.
P.S. i am older than you fullstop.
:D

today has been a horrible day, it was tuitionn all the wayyy.
i am gonna die of stress.
DARN, I NEED TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK DAMMIT! D:<

GIAM HERR OUTING

2008-11-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

WOWZA!
today was really hot, i got sunburnt.
seriousslyy sunburnt, it was so bad.
i am now officially a red lobster.
my FEET,ARMS,LEGS,FACE is red.
yeahh i am telling the truth.
i look disgusting.
but the West Coast Park outing
with the Giam Herr's
was not as bad as i thought it would be.
I actually had fun.
EXCEPT captains ball though.
it was torturous.
i was an invisible person, but of course i was invisible
because i made no noise HAHAHA. i dont blame anyone.
the pizza was awesome!
dog & bone was TOTAL OWNAGE!
hurrah for our teammm :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE NOVEMBER KIDS!
video is up on the facebook group

oh yes did i mention that 2 policemen paid a visit.
and checked on all the boys.
YES THEY WERE SO NAUGHTY THAT THEY NEEDED 2 POLICEMEN! >;D
tsk tsk tsk, you should be ashamed.
haha im just fooling around.
it was just a spot-check.
how cool was that.

okays left half-way.
so dreadddfull.
they were doing waterbombs :/
I WANT TO BOMB SOMEONE D:
gahhh but had chem tuition.
sighs, SPOIL MY DAY!
hahaha anyways

FULL FRONTAL STUDYING TOMORROW BABEYY! :D

USA bits and pieces

2008-11-20T13:49:00.001+08:00

SIMULATOR! at universal studiosFABULOUS 4!

where we saw lindsay lohan! :D

HOLLYWOOD BABEYY!

JONNY DEPP'S prints!

a little bit of pictures.
more on facebook?
and even more when i get my pictures from SHARLYNN NG! :D
hahaha

gahh i miss all of you!

2008-11-20T11:51:00.000+08:00

Yay, i finally caught up on all the events happening when i was gone.
Its great talking to my awesome SPAZ again after for so long! :D
sighs,
gahh i miss your lame jokes and crazy whackiness!
and YOU, how dare you not care about my arrival?! hahaha you horrible person! -_-

gahh i miss all you people!

itchy!

2008-11-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK! :D the US was awesome, seriously. I made friends all the way through the whole trip. They are an awesome bunch of people. Okay i gotta start studying, gahhh anyways. I am on a mission to loose my fats from all the calories i have gained from the trip, I HATE FAST FOOD, oily,fatty! okay thenn, i'll upload photos on facebook when i get it from sharn :D
did i mention that SHARN IS AN AWESOME PERSON to be with? ;D
hahahha okay then cant wait for the 5th of December, LONDON BABEYY!

you guys finally did the right thing.

2008-11-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

time for a change, regardless of skin colour.
HE'S AWESOMEZXSZ! ;D

OBAMA!OBAMA!OBAMA! :D

leaving soon

2008-11-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

One thing for sure, I am not planning to sleep tonight. Well this is what i am planning to do in the airplane ride, firstly watch 2 movies to japan/seoul then on the way to san francisco i am going to sleep. Yes, easier said than done. I have a feeling I'm gonna get homesick. I have never been away to such a far away land (USA) by myself, well not technically myself but without my family. I pray for smooth ride and no turbulance please. I haven't been studying actually, form teacher actually reprimanded us to study during the hols. But look at me, i am not doing anything. gosh, I'm officially a lazy arse that's hoping to go to ACJC. what high hopes and dreams.

Been watching Collegehumor.com its really hilarious. I recommend you to watch it, but the jokes are really crude, so it depends if you understand it or not. I am off to packing my last bits of items, hopefully it wont be that cold in the USA. But i guess i need not worry, my fats will warm me up (only advantage for fats).

Alright, Won't be able to see you people till 19th November!
and please dont sms/call me cause i'll be paying a huge amount of money for that 1 message, and you'll have to pay too. So spare me the agony, its just gonna be 11 days without me. YOU'LL LIVE WITH IT! ;D

P.S: not sleeping tonight, dont know what to do -_-

seriouslyy..

Happy Birthday to You!

2008-11-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE! :D
this year has been a roller-coaster am i right?
im so glad we've been through ups and downs together since primary school.
and GB-mates forever yes?
gosh, it seems a long time since i've been out with you :/
WHENWHENWHEN?
oh yes and please cheer up!(:
i always see you emoooo D:
remember i am here for you, and you're finally 15!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACLYN! :D
hahaha, DA SPAZES FOREVER!(:
glad i've got to know you since sec 1
so manyy dramas.
but its rather interestttinggg hahah.
our master plan is to OWNzxsz the nooby people around us ;D
hahhaa,
gah retardedd!
hahaha yes yes, you're 15 now must learn to be more mature. *ahem ahem*
lol ;D

i am listening to HSM 3 soundtrack now.
been listening to it since yesterday.
the WHOLE DAY.
its really awesome.

anywaysss, today had fellowship lunch at subway.
food was good?
nothing much except rachel TRYING to crack jokes
and the rest of us, laughing.. at her.
LOL
awwww dont worry rachel, WE ALL LOVE YOU! :D

*cough cough* sorry sudden burst of coughing
hahah KIDDDING! ;D
loves

teehee

MOVIE TIME

2008-10-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

i watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 twice in one day!
*clap clap clap*
yes yes, thank you thank you! ;D
haha the awesome-ness is here to brighten your day please :P
haha anyways, today was fun.
got to get my black flats
and my 2009 planner
and someone's (take note of the plural) birthday cards *wink wink*
*hint hint*
anyways,
did i mention that CHACE CRAWFORD IS HOT? :D
and not to mention, Zac Effron is actually quite an eye-candy!
BLEARHGH, RAWR! giberrishasiojhoi
"What's wrong with you angie? YOU'RE TURNING OBSESSED AGAIN!"

ahh shall stop.
but its their fault, who asked them to be so damn hot?
anyways,
i need to start packingg my suitcase for USA.
gahhh, helpp.

enough with emo posts!

2008-10-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

GOSSSSSIPP GIRL PHOTOS! :D
BLAIR

TAYLOR MOMSEN

CHACE CRAWFORD

omg :D

the scene :D

10 more days to USA! :D
I am like super nervous and excited, gosh i cant wait.
alright i've been watching lots of shows recently, and its SO AWESOME!
Gossip Girl is totally amazing,
i love chuck&blair
i absolutely love jenny&nate
but this is so unfair.. taylor momsen is only 15! and she gets to kiss CHACE CRAWFORD?!
how unfair can life get? lol
she's one lucky ass. SERIOUSLY lol
OMGG.
HEROES is totally awesome too!
zachary is hot, YES YES YES TOTALLY! <3

i know you're reading this

2008-10-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

why dont you read my smses?
why dont you reply?
i dont dare call you because i have no idea what to say anymore.
if its because of the latest competition,
then im really sorry.
i should've called you immediately after that day.
you just had to leave so early..
i want to be there for you.
but now, you're not talking to me.
why must i always start the talking?
i know its my fault.
but please, you're torturing me.
without talking to you, i can't live anymore.

GOSSIP GIRL is AWESOMEZX! :D

now its not the time to breakdown

2008-10-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

you're an idiot, angie.
thats it im gonna take a break from all these mess.

im gonna read my books,
im gonna watch a movie,
im gonna refrain from calling anyone,
or answering any calls (unless its someone special),
im gonna do my homework,
im gonna study.

look here, talk to her not me.
bye.

miles are getting longer

2008-10-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

i dont know how we got the gold.
its VERY unbelievable.
all i wanted was a silver.
and members wanted bronze.
how does that add up to a gold?
i still feel upset.
i really felt like we dont deserve it.
im serious.
but God, i dont understand.
i prayed so hard that you would give us an award that was deserving for our efforts.
i know that you are flawless with your decisions.
but how can this outcome happen?
i am in total clueless-ness
(is that even a word)

but sidetrack, congrats to KINGS.
whatever you did on the parade ground, stays on the parade ground
no hard feelings, and no regrets.
its our effort together as one.
eventhough all of us may think we dont deserve it.
i hope God will speak to us, upon how we managed to claim a gold.
im sorry i went off being disappointed.
but it was my emotions.
so yes, dont get too affected by it (:
LOVE YOU GUYS NO MATTER WHAT! <3

and goodbye sec 3
and hello sec 4

to those who i wont be seeing you guys next year:
i just want you to know that, you've been really great friends.
i am upset that i wouldn't be able to see you guys so often.
sighs, study hard please :/
LOVE YOU GUYS!

where are you?

2008-10-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

GAHH, the stress.
THE FRIGGING DRILL.

kill me now.

salvation is here

2008-10-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
It's gonna be alright

Hear the sound of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
It's gonna be alright

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here

i am stressed for drill, im so scared.
alright gotta go plan D:
4 MORE DAYS TO CHAOS!

i lack the discipline, fine say it.

2008-10-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

my daddy says:
"how're your results? fail is it? fail arh? FAIL? wah, just send you to London and study."

yeah, thanks for the encouragement and making me sound like a rich b!tch
i dont need your money (yet) and your comments.
even if i were to tell you my A's, you're not going to be proud anyway.
just focus on my failures and add salt/vinegar/poison onto the open wound.
just do that as if i dont care.
well listen up,
i failed Geog
i failed SS
i failed Chinese
and probably more to come...

well listen up, i am going to do well soon.
and its not for you, its for me.
so these results for this year, you have no rights to comment about it.
because you didn't help, and you weren't the one putting the effort.
it was my lousy effort and lousy attitude.
im the one going to put pressure on myself
and im gonna nag myself.
you just have to be there, watch me and keep quiet.

i am sorry, i dont feel like talking to anyone now.
its just one day of emotions
but if you still want to talk, im still here.

sorry

2008-10-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

sorry, and sorry again
it seems this year, i haven't been telling you things
and i guess you're pretty pissed about it
im sorry
ever considered that we're in the different class?
but i guess "being in a different class is not an excuse, angie"
i guess i have to balance my conversation with people
well now i learn from you.
i should've paid attention to you more, huh?
i guess i should've.
now i can't even seem to say hello to you when you walk pass.
when you're with your friends, i feel so intimidated
i should've ignored the drama and focused on you more.
at least i should've told you
but now i dont know where to start.
its like you dont have time for me anymore.
i cant seem to find time to talk to you.
but you see, now.. i feel so awkward talking to you.
i cant bring back the words i just said to you
and i cant seem to go back to what i used to be, without the drama
and i cant seem to go back to the balanced angie anymore.
and its NOT TRUE that i focus on my church friends more than my school friends.
its just that recently, things are happening.
its just so different now.
gosh, its so hard.
and you're not making it easier for me.
all i want is you to listen to me
and show that you care.

besides,
HAPPPY BIRTHDAY REUBEN!:D
nothing to say, well just have an awesome birthday.

an unexpected note

2008-10-12T18:33:00.000+08:00

i read it,
i was rather moved though.
but i dont deserve you
im just too materialistic
and you're just simple.
and sometimes i am dying to be simple
but i was brought up in a really spoilt environment
and im scared i cant change.
gosh, you haven't see who i really am :/
so please broaden your view, i might not be the one for you.
but i love you as a friend :D
and will always do!

okay so today was the celebration.
there was actually i big plan to sabo the people.
but oh wells, the relighting candles were enough to piss them off lol
actually it was just caleb.
HAHAHA! >:D
yay the spaz awesome-ness
lol a big thank you to jaclyn :D
anyways, besides that...
I WATCHED HOUSE BUNNY
and its SOOO FUNNY! lol
"Oh great you hired the exorcist!"
and
"i definitely wont be listening to simon cause he's just so mean, i usually listen to paula or randy, oh you meant the president.. of the united states.. in short U-S-A"
and
"the eyes are the nipples of the face"
and
"OH SWEET BALLS!"
and
"I think i dropped some money the other day, at this MANHOLE"
and
"Your Biceps are soo big, kiss me"

LOL HAHHAHAHA omg damn funny ;D

teehee

only got 12 days to save the world

2008-10-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

OKAY i am SO SCREWED,
firstly getting back exam scripts next week!
secondly need to figure out squad identity!
thirdly have to teach squad music drill!
fourthly have to research for SABBATICALS!
fifthly have to meet up with devotions comm, and figure out the song recording!
sixthly have to start studying for OLEVELS!
seventhly..
okay maybe thats it.
BUT still, its alot of things to do! :/
gosh, i need the strength and wisdom to finish the above tasks.
sighs i hope i can do this.
wish me luck 8D

P.S: Can't wait to go out with Shyen,Lots,Fi&Yap next monday! :D
GAHHH CAN'T WAIT!(:
LOVES! <3

change change change

2008-10-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

OH YES ONE MORE DAY BABEYY! :D
see, i cant even write what i want to write here.
cause you might have eyes everywhere! D:<
to someone special:
i dont know whether to disclose your name or not :/
but i'm still gonna post this for you (:
yes you are my SUPER AWESOME friend
and im jealous of you lol
but who wont right? (:
i've been through what you're going through now.
its tough.
its depressing.
its very saddening.
its very shocking.
and very scary.
i relied on my friends to pull me through and God as well.
oh what would i have done without them.
its okay being caught up with all the drama that is happening.
sometimes we get to worked up, and forget other important stuff that is happening around us
its very foolish of us, i know.
but sometimes it cant be help.
what's done.
is done, and i say that in the most comforting way i can ever say it
just know that your friends are there for you
dont have to hide your emotions alright?
i am here for you
forever
and
definately
always..
love, angie! :D

P.S: if you need to talk to someone, you know who to ring up! ;D
LOVE YOU SO MUCH! (duhh as a friend) lol

teehee

screwed upp

2008-10-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

amath paper today,
it was easypeasy
but i've got a shitload of careless mistakes.
sorry for the profanities.
but seriously it was soo badd.
i can just cry now.
so far, i thought that emath amongst all the papers, was the easiest

so, what am i doing noww?
well i am looking at sparknotes.com
which doesn't help at all lol.
im very close to giving up.
GOSHHHH frustratedd.
annual drill com on the 23rd of october.
gosh, WE ARE SO NOT PREPARED! D:

gahh, the terror of exams

2008-10-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENE! :D
my brotherrr, annoying brat.
hmm, well you're suppoosee to become mature.
but i guess i was wrong -_-
have an awesome year!

~~~~

today, chemistry was horrible.
no mood to talk about it.
anyways on a brighterr sidee..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RACHEL NG! :D
oh yes only got to know you this year too lol
you're an awesome friend you know that? haha
you're one of my buddies that LOVES green like me hahhaa! :D
keep doing well for everythingg! (:
and all the best for whatever you do! ;D

wishing a happy birthday

2008-10-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

Alright this post goes out to two special friends in church.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALEB AND ASHER! :D

recently got to know you guys this year, and i must say that you two are the funniest people everr. seriously im not kidding.

you guys make me laugh till i have a stomach ache -_-

oh yeah, i am looking forward to that ICE-CREAM outing you have installed for me lol!

Hope you have an AWESOME birthday today! 8D

all the best for exams too.

see you sunday! ;D

teehee.

slam the front door shut

2008-10-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you,

more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces.

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.

Well I'm putting my heart back together.

Cause I got over you.

i love daughtry and taylor swift.

their music is the best.

god, how i wish exams would get over soon.

counting down the days.

oh yes to a special you:

He's an asshole, you&I know it

I know how much you love him,

and i should've snapped you out of it.

i should've never introduce you to him

He's a jerk, but he's still my friend.

But for a person to ask you to fug off, is really disrespectful

so what if he's annoyed,

you deserve more than that guy.

so many more suiters for you in the future

you may not have found it yet.

but i know theres always a prince charming out there for every girl.

God has already planned it and chose it for us.

i hope in this time of struggle, you would go to the Lord.

seek the Lord and tell him everything.

I believe God's dying to know.

and for that idiot who broke her heart.

you can go shit yourself..

teehee! :D

counting down the days

2008-10-01T18:21:00.000+08:00

why am i online?
gahhh.
i watched,
America's Next Top Model Cycle 11
Project Runway S05
Gossip Girl S02
Heroes S03

RAWRR, shits.
hahaha, im not even studying!
where is the sense of urgency people! D:<
anyways, English&Chinese&SS was super horrible.
gosh, i dont wanna retain :/
sighs, tomorrow is EMATH
i MUST get an A1
Gahhh, such high expectations >.<
so basically i PLAN to dao everyone starting from Thursday till Tuesday.
ITS GEOGRAPHY I NEED TO STUDY!
dang, i swearr i am going to start studying for O'levels in december! 0_O

haha okay
9 more days to freedom

conversation with a retard

2008-09-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

ll you do is talk about, that person says: (9:41:00 PM)
dont anyhow lie.

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:41:02 PM)
-;.-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:41:02 PM)
sry sry

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:41:08 PM)
im not!

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:41:22 PM)
n wats that a scarred face?

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:41:28 PM)
lol HAHHA

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:41:31 PM)
its a TYPO!

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:41:52 PM)
wahh looks like ninja leh

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:41:58 PM)
wait how u do

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:05 PM)
-.;-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:10 PM)
mine looks weird

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:13 PM)
-;.-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:18 PM)
still looks weird

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:42:21 PM)
it looks RETARDED!

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:42:23 PM)
BWAHAHA

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:27 PM)
wahhh

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:40 PM)
-.'-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:43 PM)
red indian?

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:52 PM)
-:-

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:42:57 PM)
HAHAH

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:42:57 PM)
nooo this is red indian

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:43:16 PM)
-.-"-.-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:43:20 PM)
siamese twins

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:43:23 PM)
hahaha

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:43:30 PM)
LOL what the pong?!

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:43:36 PM)
hahaha

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:43:40 PM)
funny rite?

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:44:07 PM)
well at least u r laughin

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:44:10 PM)
hha

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:44:17 PM)
LOL that was HILARIOUS

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:44:18 PM)
omggg

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:44:38 PM)
wat was hilarious?

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:44:49 PM)
-/.-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:44:58 PM)
aHa scarface

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:45:26 PM)
"."

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:45:29 PM)
four eyes

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:45:32 PM)
i got skill

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:45:59 PM)
LOL WTH

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:46:27 PM)
@.@

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:46:30 PM)
nerd?

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:46:35 PM)
oooo no no no

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:46:41 PM)
porn freak!

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:46:44 PM)
AHAHA

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:47:15 PM)
LOL WTF?!

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:47:35 PM)
you know. i am SOOO going to post this on my blog.

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:47:54 PM)
huh y?

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:47:59 PM)
i still got more

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:48:04 PM)
$.$

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:48:06 PM)
money face

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:48:11 PM)
-.-

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:48:14 PM)
%

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:48:18 PM)
alien?

-G N B-Not Really Bothered To Put A Name....Just Appearing Off For The Sake Of Someone Who Does Not Want To See Me...Haha says: (9:48:21 PM)
i dunno

all you do is talk about, that person says: (9:48:21 PM)
LOL!

gosh, caleb you make me laugh so badly -.-
BUT YOU'RE SUPER LAME PLEASE!

i hate you so much

2008-09-30T19:09:00.000+08:00

All you do is talk about that person.
i am sick and tired of hearing you talk about that person.
if you want that person so bad, go and DO something about it.
not rant to another person.
oh !@#$ you.
because of you,
i hate myself so much.
god, the !@#$ appearance that makes people judge us.
you can only be in that high elite class
or just rot in the corpulant dumbster
god, spare me the pain and kill me now.

now, its just going to be you and you alone.
you're going to get bored and just talk to yourself each day.
because i am not going to be the one to just fill up your boredom
get up and do something about it.
dont expect me to do it for you.
because, i dont even want to.

now i am about to avoid you like you have NEVER known me before.
an asshole, grinning at the sight of your failure.

(take it as if, i've gone on a long vacation
you wont even know when i'll be back)

i want to be perfect

God help me in this time of need.

2008-09-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

dont try to interpret,
thats really stupid to do.
i just like it.
nothing much
gosh, i need to study.
CONFISCATE MY LAPTOP, SOMEONE! D:<

EXAMS ARE LIKE NEARING!

2008-09-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

FYI, 17 more days to the dreadful exams!
and what am i doing here BLOGGING?
shit!@#$%^&*
i better go study now.
damn all the distractions.
(sorry, next time i promise you there would be a better post)

teehee.

TESTSTESTSTESTS

2008-09-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

You Are 48% Good

You are a fairly good person. You strive to live a moral life whenever possible.

You are usually kind, generous, and loyal. However, you do have a dark side that even you may not see.

When it comes down to ethical decisions, you tend to take the path of least resistance.

So you may end up lying, cheating, or engaging in other bad behavior... because it's just easier to do so.

You are also probably: Conflicted and confused about the current course of your life

Right now you are on track to being: A slightly crooked politician

To be a better person: Break one bad habit - whether it's telling white lies or spending too much money.

How Good Are You?

You Are a Little Addicted to Gossip

In your view, most gossip is pretty harmless.

And it's a pretty fun way to pass the time!

You're willing to pass on some juicy details...

As long as you're not impacting anyone's personal life too deeply.

Are You Addicted to Gossip?

Your True Love's Name Is

Philip T.

What's Your True Love's Name?

haha lol where are youu PHILIP? haha
omg so retardeddd.
anyways, next week when school reopens, is my O'LEVEL SPA!
shit !@@#$
ughh, im soo scared.
i really wanna get into ACJC. practically dying to get there >.<
ugh. so stressed. under so much pressure.
gahhh. arghh rawrr
anyways, have you seen caleb's video? just fast forward to the end.
its priceless.
lol funny as hell.
and i will say this nowww and you better listen caleb e! -.-
TAKE OFF THE SMILIES ON ME AND JACLYN LINKS! D:<
SERIOUSSSLY, or else we'll dao you. ppfftt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA YEO! :D
you're such an awesome friend! <3

teehee.

2008-08-31T17:31:00.000+08:00

OH MY FUNNY FRIENDS! :D

CLARISSA AND SHYEN!

CHARLOTTE AND FIONA!

EVERYONE! :D

hello, so yesterday's BBQ was a blast!
hmm plus the werewolf too lol.
guess what i heard!
you know chenwei? She thought that Shanny and Derek were a couple :D
lol it was hilarious.
but anyways,
i took the bus home with jeshua. Except that reuben was suppose to follow 0_o
but heh.. pang sei-ed him. SORRY!
anyways. today was CHURCH.
it was sort of boring lol.
anyways nothing much happened.
except a FAILED ATTEMPT to FOLLOW THE PLAN! (ahem ahem jacyn!)
sighs next week next week! ;D
alriight time to studyyy the WHOLE week!
gahhh.

that certain someone, i dont know what to say.
you're just what i wanted, but i'm just not that good.
i am flattered, but i dont dare say anything.
you're the bestest friend i could ever have, but are you sure there's something more?
please focus on your studies.
i still dont understand why would anyone like someone so horrible
gosh you make me so confused and so speechless.
whats this suppose to mean?

i am tired, and out of energy

2008-08-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

out of energy
lack of faith
no more determination
lost the motivation
want to give up.
feel like dropping everything and anything and just do nothing.

i want to try my best this time.
do i still have time?
no stress.
i dont care.
i hate this.
its annoying and i want self-control
i want time-management.
i want to be born a genius.
i dont want to be unique.
i want to fit into the smart society.
i want money, i love money.
shitzx, how materialistic i am.
jealous of all the pretty and slim people in society.
you guys are effing awesome!
oh how i wish i were like you guys.
so jealous, so materialistic, so spoilt, so screwed up.
tired, so tired, so very tired
sorry such an emo post, rawr just ignore please.

oh i fumble and scream.

2008-08-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

its annoying, somehow i just can't focus.
its all that calling, all those smsing. all those msn-ing
somehow i just can't stop doing those.
why do i keep telling myself to be determined.
and then break down later on.
i am not ready for the end-of-years.
i am being honest.
I actually set a goal to study 3 months before EOYS.
but now, its gone over 1 month to the exams.
and heck, i haven't started.
bullshit.
i suck for petesake.
Idiot, i want to be hardworking.
i am so pissed off at what i have been getting for this term results.
effing effed up.

i wonder if i confiscate my laptop, my handphone.
what would i do?
would my parents still nag me?
this is bull.
i don't care, i'll just do my best.
Trust in the Lord.
forgive me of my profanities.

i am breaking down, where are you to comfort me?

idiots.

2008-08-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

okay today had church,
i need not elaborate.
in the morning, found out reuben wore the same shirt as me.
frigging weird luh.
and my reaction was like a
0_o

and then i knew that today would be a bad day.
well during service tried to cover up with jacket.
oh yes caught up with darius today (:
you shaveddd your headdd bald lol.
anyways.
yeahh time to ACJC for lessons.
went by steph's car and realised how wesley was so retarded lol.
then went to class. first one's there :D
then after thattt complained to steph how !@#$% i was. yeah.
then after that i felt like doing something cause i was so bored.
i armed-wrestled with wesley lol and i actually thought i'll win.
PFFTT haha, but he was making me laugh. he made it so easy -.-
anyways then stephhanie's match lol.
it was sooo funny.
she's STRONG MAN! :D
hahha, then i swallowed my chewing gum by accident 0_o
....
....
....
yeah, but at least i didn't die! :D
hahha, anyways i LOST lol.
then i wrestled with rachel tang
and i thought i'll lose tooo.
BUT I WON! :D
hahahaha.
IN YOUR FACEEE! >;D
kidding.
anywaysss, i realised that a couple of certain PEOPLE were behind me all the while.
and that certain SOMEONE
took a PICTURE
of our SHIRTS!
friggingg !@#$%
anyways, yeahhh it was amusing but i was like wtf.
hmm yeahh.
basically lessons were a bore.
but sitting in my dad's merc car, waving at the people when i was going off, MADE MY DAY! xD
lol, hahaha.
they gave me back the qianbian look.
damn funnyyy.

anyways, i couldn't go to oli's mansion.
dannggg, cause they weren't there.
but i bought the ZARA SHIRT I WANTED! :D
lol, eeekk im so spoilt.
hahaha okay
NEED TO START STUDYING FOR THE EOYS! :S

teehee.

2008-08-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

okay that was something i had to do yesterday lol!
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW FIONA LEONG?!
hahha anything for my awesome friend (:
cause im so nice :D
haah anyays Jacob is back (:
haha glad to have you back lol.
fiona, you should come to church more often.
you crack meee uppp lol xD
hahaha,
RACHELL, where do you get your clothes from -.-
its so awesome! 8D
THANK YOU JACLYN & DEREK FOR YOUR MONEY.
hahhhh, i earned like 18 bucks todayyy :D
lol haha free-loaddd.

asher, i'll kill you.
one fine day i will squish and squash you with my fats -.-
how dare you expose my phone?! D:<
its NOT PIRATED!

anyways, SIDETRACK! :D
OKAY ANYWAYS,
oops caps. lol
caleb i know you're reading this you goon!
you have to stop being so..
cant describe 0_O
lol but anwyays yeahh.
dont annoy jaclyn.
yes THANK YOU! :D

im on a hiatus people!
cause i've got a PHYSICS&MATH&SS test coming up :/
yes the sadness.
AWAITING TO POST ABOUT MEETING MY COUSINS ON TUESDAY!

teehee.
=

PC MEETING!

2008-08-16T12:58:00.000+08:00

HALF OF THE PHYSICAL COMMITTEE! :D

hahhaha okay more photos are on facebook (:
hmm, im proud of myself for doing homework lol.
but now im like slacking. seriously slacking haha.
this is what i hate about myself -.-
anyways, today's morning was spent at kelley's house doing something SECRET.
hahaha shhh can't tell you.
ughh my face feels itchyyy.
i ate alot this morning :/
but im gonnnnaa excercisee! YESSSS.
it'll be 45 mins hahha!
yesterday night was spent on the computerr on facebook spamming the giam herr wall -.-
yeahh, i was so boreddd
okay so the weekends are gonna end soon.
bummmerrr.
its so fast :/
hmmm anyways,
MORE HOLIDAYS PLEASE!
oh yes,
LING AND OLI ARE HERE! :D
yayy!

teehee.

Learning to Fall

2008-08-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow and the day after Tomorrow,
NO SCHOOL! :D
yay, because its E-learning.
the joy... -.-
hahaha,
oh man i dont care im gonna excercise on both days!
I DONT CARE I HAVE TO.
i am too fat right now.
So I have loads of homework and loads of tests coming up next week :/
yeah i feel the stress.
and the worst thing is that i can't seem to LEAVE THE DAMN COMPUTER!
because its just too fun.
the commotion of the situation is so hilarious.
the jokes the plans that are so interesting!
yes and i mean you,
SPAZ! <3
(THE SPAZES WILL OWN THE REST!)
NOOB! -.-
SCOUT! xD
SPAZ/CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE! :D
yes, its so fun talking to you people.
anyways, Tomorrow I am going to be so hardworking!
So yes, THERE WILL NOT BE ANYY POST FROM ME TILL LIKE MONDAY?
lol i dont know, but i know there should NOT be any post from me during
thursday or friday or saturday or sunday!
hahaha MUST BE DETERMINED TO MUG! D:<
yesyes, YES EVERYBODY.
I am hinting a, HIATUS!

teehee

hold on to your words, because talk is cheap

2008-08-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

Like a Knife - Secondhand Serenade
I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasted away

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life.

~~~

So emotional, i can't take it any longer.
but so addictive to listen :D

Spazz unite!

2008-08-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, lesson was hilarious with shanny.
she's awesome! :D
okay hmm basically after lesson,
i went to GWC to watch a moviieee :D
yep, its mummy
and it was GOOODD!
seriously, but Dark Knight was better xD
hahahha, anyways so i got Esprit stuff again lol
im totally obsessed.
hmmm, I WANT MORE! >:D
hahha so spoilt :/
anyways, i need to study.
but i cant seem to GET STARTED!
wah shit, :/
sighs sighs sighs.
angeline wong, stop plaing the computer and do some work!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! :D

2008-08-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

Janelle and spazspaz and esther

spaz and amanda

ohhh i feel like changing the text format lol! hahaha so kewl.
anyways i survived 080808 :D
yay, awesome.
anyways after that whole NDC people were calling me moses lim.
not that i found it irritating.
it was sooo embrassing.
anyways, SIDE-TRACK.
I NEED TO START STUDYING PHYSICS AND SS :D
lol and not to mention literature.
how to study? :/
hmmmm, okayyy wait so after NDC.
it was the Worship training cum bonding session GB! ;D
yeah, so i was the drum teacher?
totally was veryy noob.
cause i was like "ehh how to teach"
hahha, and my 6 students were so clueless around me.
hahha, but they said that they benefitted from the session, so heck lol
haha anyways i am very proud for these girls:
1.Rachel Khoo
2.Isabel
3.Ruth Choy
4.Naomi
5.Ina
6.Vivien
:D
yepp, awesome awesome students they are
~~~
hmmm, well everything went well.
so i thought.. until sau yee said somethingss.. :/
but OH WELLS :D

hahaha, okay then better get back to studying :D
OH AND YES, ESPRIT SHOPPING ON SUNDAY! :D
i've got like 50 PERCENT DISCOUNT.
yay, be jealous lol.
hahahha xD
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! :D

teehee.

i am trying my best to let go.

2008-08-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

awesome, my brother has odour. lol
puberty is hitting him. lol cant wait for him to grow up
hahaha i wanna see whether he looks manly or whimpy haha! xD
sucha horrible sister i am :D
anyways, Geography test was screwed. really really screwed.
chemistry test tomorrow!
and i HAVE TO SCORE! ):
ughhh frustrating!

side track, but i really hope and pray that i dont screw up for my class skit :/
its really embarrasssing! :/
goshhh >.<
sighs, i must remmeber to FLAB MY FLACCID TUMMY! xD
anyways. hmm. on friday. National Day Celebration.
Im doing the PA system :/
its like, so screwed seriously..
must remember my roles!
so first the "Honour and Glory" sooonngg.
then fade away the music when the flag is being hookedd..
umm then wait for the.. okay i forgot -.-
sighs,

REALLY SORRY I GOT YOU INTO TROUBLE! :/
will not happen again okay? ):

I passed my chinese test.

2008-08-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

yes i passed my chinese test. and im so proud of it lol.
it was so unexpected haha.
must continue to work hard!
oh yes, ignore the post before this, its over.
O-V-E-R.

Yes im going to recieve tuition on sunday morning!
and i suggest we do physics & SS :D
hahhaha, thank you thank you.
lol, hmmm
so this thursday would be chemistry common test.
and im super freaked out, because today i screwed up my geog test :/
shitzxsz, bad choice to talk to someone so late at night ><
ahhhh.
okayy ANGIE GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS ON FRIDAY! :/

teehee.

you can tell me that there is nobody else.

2008-08-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

i have been listening to emo songs these days.
anyways, i've been feeling like shitzxs nowadays.

recently i've just been smsing here and there.
Msn-ing here and there.
facebokk-ing here and there.
teasing people here there.
and
infatuating on 1.
and i dont want to continue that feeling.
its wrong, i dont want to loose that person.
the friendship must be kept forever.

and you, the certain you.
If you want me to stop talking to whoever, then just tell me.
I will do it. Cause you're my friend.
and i harmed you like crazy.
But please give up already,
I wont go to you.
i wont, its just not suppose to happen.

i dont love you
nor do i hate you
i just have this fluttery sensation when you smile&protect&sing&talk
yeah, i like you.
uhoh, angie you're in trouble

shit.

i am awesome.

2008-08-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

yes so today was CELL GROUP OUTING (girls)
yes the girls had money so we went to TAKASHIMAYA
and then
the boys had no money so they went to SUBWAY
funny funny funny.
today was screwed. yeah veryyy screwed.
anywyasss.
serioussslyy ashherr i will SQUISH and SQUASH you fine day -.-
watch outtt.

shanny is awesome! :D

Plan Failed.

2008-08-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

You're lonely, I'm lonely, Together we're not lonely :D Cheer up charlotte im here for you :DNicole Thio, finally a picture with you!

This is like 3/8 of the GB sec 3 :D

well the whole week, i didn't study -.-
okayy well, Had like 3 Common Tests this week.
Yeah English, Chinese then followed by Amath.
Okay english, it was average.
chinese, need i say more -.-
Amath, SO FRUSTRATING! sighs.
Tomorrow FOP with Glorica and Koh :D
hahahaha, its gonna be DAMN crowded. seriously i think lol.
but oh wells. hahhaa.
How am i gonna go back homee.. thats the problem.
okayyyy okayy, so yes i think this is gonna be my last time posting until like next week saturday again hahaa.
Next week is, Geography and Chemistry test! x/
ughh, uber-duber-stress next week!

teehee.